A love begging for Euthanasia( a sonnet)

i.
Is there a medicine that exists?
That is capable of erasing a fragment of memory?
A memory that had been wishing to exit
It wishes to be just a faded, old memory

II.
Is there such drug that could numb such feeling?
A pain I try to suppress but is useless
For I had tried t0 pretend not knowing anything…
The instinct I tried to ignore but I am not senseless!

III.
Oh fragile, is what I am… Vulnerable to the bone
Should I trust such instinct or should I not?
My heart had been screaming; it doesn’t feel like it’s homed
To live with you in lies, oh I’d rather not!

IV.
Such heartache for denying what’s already been caught…
Unravel such truth! Do give up and reveal your fault!