Anata no tame ni.. anata no dake desu :(

One evening I waited, it's sad and dark
The lamp's light start to blink, It's night time now
'Til now I still await for your come back
The rose you gave had lost it's redness now

Alas! the ceiling has some cobwebs now
The player played the last of the gray songs
yet still I wait for you no matter how
I hate to think that something might be wrong

For decades I had aited here for you
Maybe to me the red had turned to gray
Should I consider myself as your fool?
Doubt is my heart but for you I await

Until I gushed into my lastest breath
My wait for you will never have a breadth.

-Written by Catrina Licudine on July 12,2009

On a heart of a modern geisha

Tonight I put on my make-up

With the memory of last night…

A little teary eyed but still..

I put on my make up…

The air is humid I headed to the place

Where I am supposed to be heading…

I sit there and wait hoping to see you

At the corner where it took place

The sweetest first glance

The rush of emotion like no any other…

I look all over the place

Searching for that special glance

I sit waiting and wondering…

The things I said and my gestures..

Was I pretty enough for you?

Will you ever come back I keep wondering…

Will you laugh if I say

That my chest is in pain

It wants to be with you

But those are the things I really want to say

My chest is still in pain

The make up cannot hide the sadness

A guest needs company

I need to hide the pain

I put on a mask of smile

And greeted him the sweetest way

Another sweet night

Another reason for a real smile

A mother’s message

If beyond the seas is where thy hopes and dreams lie…
Thy path be bound there so you cannot hear me cry.
If money can make you smile…
Go as far as you can, go a thousand mile

For I am the chain that holds you back…
But being a chain, I’d insist not to hold you back
I’ll let you fly towards the sky, so please don’t look back
Departure is emotion shattering; it does leave a crack…

Because for the sake of you rising up…
I’d endure the pain of being sunken… seeing you on the top

shoujo no kanashii monotagari

As she looked in the mirror
An ocean she saw...
vast, empty and full of horror...
yet she was at awe...

The girl in the mirror
has poker face
But her eyes seem to tremor
now her heart starts to race

Her smile is a broken line
The clue is nowhere to find.
Her song is a broken ryhme
All her emotions are left behind.

She looks so tired
but still, a smile so kind
So hard she tried
for such happiness to find.

She doesn't sleep searching,
her head screams for mercy
I saw my hands clutching
While screaming "Im not crazy"

Happiness where have you been hiding?
'til how much misery
do you plan to put me through
How many centuries til I solve this mystery?

Is love on it's own enough?

I.
Is love on its own enough
to be recognized as love at all?
Is it enough to bridge us through the rough
As if there were no shingles at all?

II.
is love on its own considered alive
To keep us on the same path
Will it ever be enough even until after life
Is this love's work? O such bloodbath

III.
Is love on its own ample?
ample enough for us to stay
Even if the storm tramples
the toughest of our days

And as I write this sonnet with doubt on our affections
Is there ever love enough to keep my domiciliation?

The eternity I desire

I.
Our paths intertwine as the cherry blossoms abloom,
O, the birds are celebrating, singing a wonderful tune.
By the yellow we are blinded,
Believing that forever we’d be bonded.

II.
The clock and it’s hands rotated and rotated.
The yellow turned to gray as it dilated.
The cherry blossoms now refuse to bloom
And the birds shook their heads with gloom

III.
Ecstatic smiles hide behind the doors,
Love juxtaposed, letting lust take the floor.
Oh mercy, don’t throw it away to nostalgic memoirs
Don’t let me survive through what’s left on our reservoir.

IV.
On the road we have not take shall we?
‘Til we don’t know what’s ahead, let our love forever be.

A love begging for Euthanasia( a sonnet)

i.
Is there a medicine that exists?
That is capable of erasing a fragment of memory?
A memory that had been wishing to exit
It wishes to be just a faded, old memory

II.
Is there such drug that could numb such feeling?
A pain I try to suppress but is useless
For I had tried t0 pretend not knowing anything…
The instinct I tried to ignore but I am not senseless!

III.
Oh fragile, is what I am… Vulnerable to the bone
Should I trust such instinct or should I not?
My heart had been screaming; it doesn’t feel like it’s homed
To live with you in lies, oh I’d rather not!

IV.
Such heartache for denying what’s already been caught…
Unravel such truth! Do give up and reveal your fault!