lyrics I can't utter when you are around

There is a gap between us.
There has always been.
It's just that lately it has grown bigger, wider, deeper;
And it hurts.
And it's bad for my health coz I can't eat and I can't sleep.
I can't breathe without thinking about you.
I couldn't finish the chores I started because pictures of you suddenly appear in my mind;
So I lose my focus.
And it sucks that I can't tell it to your face
Because it's my fault:
I have loved you;
Thus gave you the power to hurt me, bruise me, break me..
But it doesn't matter.
I don't care.
The thought of you is enough to get me through the day,
Though it doesn't mean that I'm okay.
Actually.... I don't care...
I've become numb.
My world still rotates but I don't take notice.
I'm left behind..
bruised, broken, severed..
Still I go on,